Reflective Response to "Spring" in Kim Ki Duk's Film

In the movie, the master taught how the similar-looking herb can kill or save people. It's the white line that determines the effect of the herb. Just like that, our wordings can either kill or save people depending on the intention that is hidden in the words. I once was in a very bad mood as something really bad happened. One of my friend came and said "Awww.. that's too bad" in a very emotionless tone with a little bit of smiling face. I know that it's her usual face and tone, but I couldn't stop thinking that the girl was enjoying my disappointment and happy because I'm said. After that day, I couldn't really open up my mind to her or share my personal experiences. However, one of my friend wrote me a long letter that wishes me to feel better. It wasn't a great artistic piece, but it moved me and I was able to feel much better, thinking that I have good friends around me who I can rely on, so there is no reason to be depressed. I still keep that letter. Both actions and words were to make me cheer up, but one worked and one didn't. I believe that it's because of the intention and care that is hidden inside the words that made the difference, just like the white lines on the herb.

Also, the boy tied animals for his amusement, and it lead to the animals to die. Similarly, I usually tease people around me for my amusement, and I find out that it can bring the same effects as well. I once told funny stories about one of my teacher in my academy to my friends. And I thought that it won't affect him at all, because I tole others once, and he didn't take that seriously. However, he did this time, and he was seriously offended. I felt really guilty, however, I didn't know how to apologize to him. He moved to another academy later. It wasn't because of my teasing, but I still feel like it's all my fault. Still, I can't control myself sometimes and still hurt people. But I always try to remind myself about the incident and try to restrain myself. I think I will have the guilt forever, just like how the kid in the movie will feel for killing the animals.